Hi, I'm new here and this is my first post since the introduction one. I'm sorry for my bad English.

It's actually great yo!

The topic of today comes because of a particular situation. Have you ever entered a room and suddenly you just realize that everyone was talking about you and suddenly changes the subject.

From this point forward I am going to assume that this is what actually happened, because this is what you actually felt; if they wernt talking about you in your above situation, somewhere this actually happened to you and it hurt a lot!

All my life I’ve been around false people, people who talk behind your back, even know, grownups can be like this.

All your life? It sounds like a theme then; what is your earliest memory of it? Sounds like you may have been traumatized by this as a kid.

I just wonder, how can this be possible, how can a mature adult be cruel and false like that, I honestly can´t deal with it. I don’t know that it’s just me but everyone keeps telling me that all people are like that and that I should get used to it, but I can’t.

I'm thinkin that we seem to collect people in our lives that will recreate our deepiest conflicts; if we don't know what better looks like, it's difficult to find friends that, for example, do not talk behind your back, or make you feel that way. Additionally, it won't be limited to just your friends. You might see it on tv all the time, or at a meeting....all your relationships, it may come up and be triggering for you-and it really can make you feel like your going crazy lol!

I do believe that people are actually talking about themselves, but literally; if they insult or offend you intentionally, then what ever they say is actually their own insecurity.

What do you feel they are talking about when you enter the room?

I’m I the only one who is affected by this?

No, but it sure does feel like it, right? Sounds like your feelings never seem to get validated either;

Maybe it’s because I suffered from psychological bullying when I was younger. I wonder.

Can you talk about that? Who did it, what was it like for you (horrible, I'm sure, but what things stuck out for you?)

Thanks for taking time to read this.