Just wanted to report that today is DAY 9 of sobriety (including 1 week of rehab)! I feel like **** physically & I've been an emotional trainwreck... otherwise, I'm holding up fine & haven't relapsed. Going to hunt down some NA meetings to get me through the weekend.

My most unfortunate finding is that I've become more hostile, depressed, angry and outspoken. I used to be able to hold things in, but now I know I can't just drown it out when I get home. So I let it out in the moment.

On the upside, I have also been working on some theraputic music to release the hostility safely... something I wasn't able to do before (because I was too drunk to play bass and/or read my own handwriting). Yay! It does ease the pain a bit.