2much2little, i can't say much more than the others. These are very good things to go by. I never went to rehab which sometimes i do think i missed out on some things but i stay strong*one biggy is my boyfriend who supported me at the time i was quitting, he was just a friend then* but also due to i know the life i had was no good for what was going on and what i'm dealing with now and to get up away and stay away is a very liberating feeling. It took me several times of failing before i finally stopped and saw myself outside of the box. I couldn't live or be around others using hard drug. i had to leave after a month of temptations among other the things the last and final time i decided i wanted to change for the better. Leaving my brother and friends not just some strangers. I know how hard it is to tell some one you love no i don't want to get high. My brother thought i was snobish among other things but ya know today he tells me atleast i'm trying (he still uses sadly). It does create a block but i hope your cousin and you have more than just getting high together. I wish you well and that you make it in the army. And i think you should read the other's posts with heartly hearing ears. best wishes and stay strong and remember do what's best for you