So I found out last night that my mother had a stroke the day before and has been having mini ones for a year. She told me she was under medical care but it turns out it's just her nurse neighbor "keeping an eye" on her. She won't go to a real doctor because she doesn't believe in them(she's a homeopathic/holistic person which is fine for most things but a stroke?) and even after having been told by the nurse to rest and not work for a few days, she still wants to do some tomorrow with my help. I fought with my sister about not helping mom tomorrow because they are both not taking this situation seriously. They seem to think my mother is superwoman and nothing will kill her. The women in my family deal very poorly with stress... our bodies fail in various ways when we get overwhelmed. Stressing about my mother and fighting with my sister sent me spiraling into a mixed episode. I was raging angry one second and crying hysterically the next. I decided to not help tomorrow so my mother is forced to not work and I know I'm going to be the bad guy. They are going to guilt me to death and I just can't handle it. I have to step back from my family for myself again and it's not any easier this time than it was the first time. I'm the one who has taken care of everyone else since I was 15 years old. Why won't they let me just take care of myself??