I think I am going through menopause. Am overdue and also unusually irritable. However I am also depressed and living in a very hot place so I can't even tell if I am really in meno or if it's just my emotional issues. All I know is I feel as if there is nowhere to turn to for relief. These past few days have been intolerable. I just cut my own hair (I always do) which was not the wisest thing to do in my current frame of mind but that was the only thing I did today that was enjoyable..

Yesterday I went to get some Indian food. Was so hot (not the best time to get Indian food...) that I blurted out to the lady serving the food that I was shfitzing...I don't even know what that means but it just felt like the right word for how I was feeling.....She gave me an extra piece of lentil bread...