Hi I'm new here, but no time for sweet talk.
I have had my horse Cassy for 3yrs, and today I had to give her away for retirement at a farm out of state. I miss her so much, and it's triggering my PTSD!
I feel like throwing up every time I think about how I'll never be able to hug her, ride her, or play with her again. She has a stress fracture high on her hip, along with severe arthritis, but a FLAMING YOUNG attitude, and I feel so bad that she can't do what she loves anymore. I feel vulnerable now

*****

Vulnerable is never good for me. She was set up as equine therapy, but it grew. She shielded my heart, soul, and body. I quite literally felt powerful, confident, and less fearful with a 1,400lb horse under me. I'm alone now.

HE can get me now

Long story, bathroom, stranger, 8 years old, unlocked door, .rape. not telling for 6 years. I am STILL scared that he will somehow find out that I told, and he will kill me, or worse, do it again. Cassy was my souls guardian, and now I'm about to shatter...and I'm scared...

16, girl, ohio, self-injury, major depressive disorder, PTSD, generalized anxiety