I'm going to re-introduce myself as I realize this is the forum I will be spending the most time in. I'm 41, and am faced with alarmingly escalating bp symptoms, accompanied by alcoholism. I was a binge drinker in my 20s and 30s, not helped by a sea-going career. I drank when I was happy, I drank when I was miserable but remained a high-performing guy through it all-sober when I needed to be, all over the map when it didn't matter as much. Kid brother killed himself in 1997 and I haven't been the same since. I had a bit of a breakdown about 6 yrs ago, with panic attacks, the first time I felt I had to remove myself from a job due to my bpolarism. I forget what meds I was on at the time, it might have been Abilify. I've also tried Wellbutrin, Prozac, geodone, and lexapro, with very limited success. Since then, I've managed to stay with a job and perform exceptionally well. It's dealing with the rest of the time that's giving me fits. Lots of free time when I'm not working and this has proven to be the worst thing in the world for someone with my tendencies. At any rate, I've got a very open mind and am committed to listening to any and all suggestions. Hoping also to provide some input to others; it may be suspect, but I like to think that, though I can't always help myself the way I'd like, I am always capable of helping others.