I was eight months sober. EIGHT! And i went into the psyc Ward for six weeks. I thought I'd be fine, but I went to this music festival and Effed everything up. I had so many drugs, even when my Pdoc and T said no more drugs it Effs with you. And now I'm back to smoking cones, and DMT. I took four tabs of acid and lost my ***** at this music festival. What have I done to myself? I'm back to my old tricks. What am I going to do?
-sigh- Should I tell the truth to my T? I know how angry she would get. Because i rpomised her I wasnt going to do any more drugs.

I feel like a failer, but I feel so free.