why quirkster do you want to feel numb? when the effects of drug use stop you're still faced with the same issues that caused you to use. we can't run from self, we go with us. when we stop running away from our probs we are the only one there. some things are really bothering you. i'd definitely talk about this in therapy. that's what T's are for. and pick yourself up, brush yourself off and try to learn what's really going on, the drugs are only a symptom of what's going on with you. that, imo, is what you need to face painful tho it may be. the end result of getting to the bottom of this will truly set you free. drugs won't. they just take us hostage.
we're here for you. u're not a failure, you're fighting a deadly disease-addiction. glad you posted. many of us reversed our success into self sabatoging behaviors again. you can change that as many of us did.