Thank you so much for taking time responding, this as been killing me for a long time and to have the possibility to talk to someone who understands its great, so thank you.
No i don't have a therapist. I was seeing a psychologist, not only because of this problem, but because of others to but i left.

Since you did at one time feel sexual desire, then you're probably not what I discussed in the above paragraph.

I did have, i dont know if this could be called sexual desire but i started masturbating very young ( at the age of 4 -5 ). I don't know if it is because of that or if it is normal to do it so young, but i think that time i was, well how can i say it, sexually influenced by one of my parents, i think one of them stimulated my inicial sexuality. I'm sorry if you don't understand what i'm saying, because i'm not english and i don't know how to describe it. Maybe this can be because of the pill, i don't know. I only think it's so weird to doesn´t have the need to have relations and after i do it, to have nausea.

He really understands, more than i could ask, and has been compreensive but lately he gets all moody and makes me feel worse because of this.
Thank you really.