I'm 65 & for 50 yrs was dx clinically depressed. Maybe I was, but I verged on, & several times attempted, suicide during that time until almost 3 yrs ago when a dx of bipolar changed my life, because finally I was prescribed medication that gave my brain what I guess nature didn't.

Like all the others, Jeremy, I am so sorry for what you're going through. The thought of losing your career is more than I can imagine. But I do know--even without knowing you--what would be worse: to go thru life being bipolar & being untreated (or improperly treated) for it. You don't really have a life.

As scary & horrible as losing your career would be, I wish you the best in proper diagnosis & therapy--whichever way that goes. I hope you come back here & let us know how you're doing. This is a great place to be & wonderful, wise, caring people to be with--if you have to go thru the bad stuff.