I'm pretty sure I dissociate. I'm seeing a psychiatrist every week to figure out whats going on with me. But, If I am actually dissociating, it feels like this. I zone out but I'm still concious, I know what I'm doing at the time. I feel all fuzzy and tingly in my head and my whole body. I actually kind of feel like I'm on some weird drugs, like I'm on a trip. It usually happens when I get stressed out, like if I'm in the middle of an argument with my husband. But sometimes it happens out of nowhere. He can tell when it happens too, I talk different, he can look into my eyes and I look almost empty kind of. If I'm in the middle of saying something, I all of a sudden stop, and everything goes blank, I dont remember what we were even talking about or what I was saying. Then when I finally feel normal again, I have an extremely hard time remembering what happened. I'm pretty sure I have dissociated for a month or two at a time!

When I was 16, I went through a very stressful time, I lost my first boyfriend because he went to prison for something he didnt even do and I lost my mind basically. I couldnt handle it. I really loved him. I somehow dont remember quite a few months of our whole relationship, especially towards the end of it. For the past 4 years, I went on a rampage. I dont remember half of it. I ended up getting raped twice, and I was also in an abusive relationship for a year and a half. I cant remember a lot of any of it. Anways, my husband, who actually was the boyfriend who went prison, notices that I'm laways forgetting certain moments, or things I say or do, even recently.

Now I want to hear your stories! Tell me how you feel when you dissociate.