I've been riding and taking lessons for a year now. I'm on the Interscholastic Equestrian Association, and I have a coach, and he provides horses. There is going to be a new horse coming in, but it's just going to be worse trying to trust again. I can't even trust myself, and Cassy was the first time I had ever given that much trust.

I've been clean from self injury for 3wks, but panic attacks, and flashbacks keep making me think about doing it again. Is this normal for PTSD to flare up like this?