I have some form of anxiety disorder. I have no clue which one but it's there plain as day. I've been on Valium on and off since I was 14 for my panick attacks and anxiety. It's gotten so bad at points I would count 30 panick attacks in one day!

Had a seizure back in August. The seizure started much like many of my other attacks during high stress phases. The same feeling I get when I dissasociate from my DID. Blackness, heavy feeling in my head, cloudiness, and I feel like I'm being pulled from the world and from my own body. Same exact feeling when I had the grand mal seizure (Never had before August of this year). Same exact feeling I had when I fainted and stopped breathing for nearly 3 minutes 4 years ago. I think they are from stress and anxiety.

So now I'm afraid of sleep. Every night nodding off when I get to that point of unconscious I am startled awake very fearful. Feeling as if I'm going to have a seizure. It makes me afraid to sleep every night.

I can no longer drive due to the seizure, they medically suspended my license. None the less I wouldn't drive. I'm terrified of driving and cars since a horrible accident last year that I was involved in. I was asleep during the time and woke up to a tow truck headed right at me going 60mph in my 2 door hatch back. I'm on pins and needles every time I get in the car.

Almost a year ago I was surrounded by 5 dogs out in the middle of no where trying to attack me. I had to walk 1/2 a mile through marsh and water to get away in the middle of February. Dogs terrify me now. I am too afraid to walk alone now.

Every detail about my daughter terrifies me. I don't like anyone watching her. She's 3 years old and still to this day I wake up all throughout the night checking on her to make sure her stomach still is moving. I'm terrified of SIDS and any accidents or misfortunes.

So many worries. So much fear. I'm afraid to get in the car, but when the car has stopped I'm afraid to get out the car. Even afraid to go into church and have a seizure and them think I am the devil so I stay away from church. I'm working on that one because God is most important to me.

No doc for another 18 days. Distractions are my best friend when it comes to my fears and anxiety phobia etc... Distract myself from the things that terrify me. But that no longer works. I'm afraid of the world! Each and every person in it! I'm afraid of them... I'm afraid for them... I'm afraid of me... I'm afraid for me... I'm screwed!