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I have been dating this gentlemen for over a year, and most days I am super happy with him. Well after he sorted out some of his issues. The only problem I have with him now, is he is an alcoholic that drinks socially, maybe one night every other weekend. My concern is, that when he does drink, he does not know how to stop. He also gets that typical, arrogant asshole mentality and ends up saying things to intentionally hurt my feelings. I forgive him instantly because he is drunk. But at the same time I think. The truth comes out when your drunk. So does he really think this about me and just didn't want to voice it? When he is sober he is an awesome loving, caring boyfriend and he is great with my daughter. He treats her as if she were his own. Even drunk he still treats her exceptionally well, its just me he is rude to. He always ends up apologizing as is standard with most alcoholics. I am just getting to the point where it is to much for me. I love him, I really do. I just doubt I can tolerate the Drinking any longer. Does feeling this way make me a bad person? I mean, My father is a recovering alcoholic, my uncle is an alcoholic well honestly most of my family is. I just don't know how to communicate with him that he needs to seek help seriously and allow me into his AA life. (He is court ordered to go to AA twice a week.) I have repeatedly asked him if I could accompany him, but he says that is a part of his life that he wants to keep to himself. I went to one meeting with him. But after that meeting he hasn't let me go with him. I guess I am just frustrated and out of ideas.
Thanks to whomever takes the time to read this, I really just need to vent and get these feelings out of my head that way they don't eat me alive.
Megan
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