Give yourself some credit for what you have achieved. You have survived several months of depression, you live with the side effects of your medication and you are working towards recovery by starting new activities in your local community. You are a survivor of BP!!!! be proud of that. Don't forget to move with little steps... have a to do list of things to finish off around the house and work through them one by one. Reward yourself for your accomplishments. Don't compare yourself to other people because they don't have to live with the same struggles that you do. Also you don't know the struggles that they have - so don't assume that their lives are perfect... one of my friends has a beautiful house, but she is bordering on OCD and has to be like that or she gets stressed out.