Ohlala, I seem to think the same way about myself sometimes. The road I have been down was so rocky and I am so behind. I would have been much better off if I had taken the easy street. It is what it is! We can't beat ourselves up over it. Blackpup and kaliope have some great ideas I think I will try myself....cleaning the clutter, and making a to do list etc...It's time I simplify my life so I may enjoy more finally!