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Hi ! AA was enough for me. I was a HEAVY drinker for 20 years --- and a blackout drinker besides. I had to have a drink before everything! Alcohol became my "lover" and confidante. I didn't know how to live without it.
I finally had an "awakening" too, and went to AA. I did more than 90 meetings in 90 days -- did service work, and did everything that my sponsor and home group suggested. This past July, I celebrated 18 years clean/sober.
You don't have to believe in a specific "God" to join AA. All that is needed is a willingness to believe that there is a Power greater than yourself. It could be the sky, a tree, a star -- or whatever! I'm not religious but I'm very spiritual.
I hope you will continue with meetings -- and as for your fiance', what is so wrong with telling her? If you're going to have a GOOD relationship, you should be open and honest about everything. Hiding this from her and then having her find out on her own is just going to make her distrust you. Besides, we always figure that we've hidden our drinking problem from our loved ones, but ALWAYS they've had some suspicion or knew it all along. So don't be surprised if she already knows about your drinking. If she loves you, she will support you thru this. If she doesn't support you, it's best you find out now. God bless & take care. And please keep us updated on how you're doing. Hugs, Lee
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