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Originally Posted by roadrunnerbeepbeep
I'm 65 & for 50 yrs was dx clinically depressed. Maybe I was, but I verged on, & several times attempted, suicide during that time until almost 3 yrs ago when a dx of bipolar changed my life, because finally I was prescribed medication that gave my brain what I guess nature didn't.
Like all the others, Jeremy, I am so sorry for what you're going through. The thought of losing your career is more than I can imagine. But I do know--even without knowing you--what would be worse: to go thru life being bipolar & being untreated (or improperly treated) for it. You don't really have a life.
As scary & horrible as losing your career would be, I wish you the best in proper diagnosis & therapy--whichever way that goes. I hope you come back here & let us know how you're doing. This is a great place to be & wonderful, wise, caring people to be with--if you have to go thru the bad stuff.
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Roadrunner, thanks for the kind words and support. My dx was kind of the same thing, but in a shorter time span. I went to the military doctor and he just said I was depressed and put me on Lexapro. I started taking Lexapro (for 6 months) and I felt "better", then "good", then "really good", then started having symptoms of mania listed above to the point where I wanted to committ suicide. It was horrible. I guess you could say I had (and still have) psychosis (a lot of "word salad" and what-not). The Pdoc put me on Depakote ER (divalproex ER) and it's been helping. Hopefully I'll start feeling like myself again soon because I'm moving out of my ex's house and that will relieve some stress. Have an apppointment with the Pdoc and Tdoc this week, so things are looking up (minus the whole getting discharged from the military lol)