I actually did a totem animal quiz once and it came out to be the spider. I originally took it for fun because I was bored that day, but it totally made sense to me. I've been obsessed with drawing spiderwebs and spiders, like doodling on paper, my hand, arm, clothes, and tops of converse (when I had them), etc. I was always mesmerized by spiders and their webs and them seemed unusally attracted to me. All of this confused me, I never knew why I had a fascination with them or why they were attracted to me, because I actually feared them.

I started to develop the theory that what people are most afraid of they're most obsessed with.