I've suffered long term from depression and looking back I would say many people said things to me that indicated that they suspected or were even concerned about my mood. I don't think you can really hide it for long. Later in life, meds became necessary and I believe many also noticed the effect on me. I have only really taken Zoloft and Lexapro--nothing that would really tranquilize. People noticed. Some thought it was marijuana.

Next point--I married someone with the total lack of capacity to tolerate and understand depression.

So my point is that if depression is a part of your life, and it may continue to be, maybe it's best to put that on the table before you are attached and that person CANT understand. Would u want a date to notice the difference in your pupil's dilation and assume you r recreationally high? Should you mention depression on the first date? Probably not. The single people in my age range 45-55 put their cards on the table---quickly. On the other hand, it may be hard to find someone who is understanding unless they have firsthand knowledge. I guess there r arguments both ways.

I agree with the other posts that maybe its time for you to hold off the search for a new relationship right now. You have alot to deal with and dating can be rough.

If I could turn back the clock, I'd find someone who suffered from depression too and we would somehow make ourselves happy. Wish life was that simple. I hope you a quick recovery.