eastcoaster, thank you for posting what you did. I have had the same reaction in therapy to a few of my women Ts, and I'm not a lesbian either. I even asked my gynecologist why that could happen, and she didn't know. My theory is that intimacy and longing for a loving relationship can arouse us the same way a sexual relationship can. It also is because of the excitement of the session, which is emotional but our bodies don't know that so they react the same way.

When I saw my first T years ago, I TOLD her about it. I thought I was going to die but told her anyway. I thought my feelings were sexual and she said they were sensual. I told her so that she would believe me that it had to do with sex but she told me it didn't. I didn't understand.

I told my other Ts too. They didn't think I was abnormal and didn't think it had to do with sex either. I thing the consensus was that I confused love and sex. I think it's that sexual excitement and intimacy are the same; it's all in your mind anyway. The feelings, that is, and then they show up the same way.

Again, thank you for your honesty. Try not to be ashamed of your feelings or your body. I don't want sex with my T either. It's love that I want. I hope I helped you a little.