Vaarier, I've been on meds for close to four years now, with no signs of going off them anytime soon. I've been divorced now for almost two years, and I can say that I have more hope of being/staying married in the future if I take meds when I need them. Anyone worth pursuing will understand that. It's unfortunate that taking meds is still seen as a sign of weakness by some, but again, you decide who knows, and anyone who would judge you for it, you don't have to tell. I wish you success as you pursue treatment.