Thanks stopdog, beautiful mess and 3rdtimesthecharm - I guess with all three of you saying the same I have to acknowledge that this is probably good rational advice - I just can't get my head round doing therapy and being on medication, although I know the theory / research backs it.

I think I am concerned that the medication will change me then who will it be in the therapy room (btw do you think that concerned is a grown up word for scared?)

Thanks guys - Soup.