It has been two weeks since I decided to stop seeing one t with whom it seemed all that happened was I was in frustrated anger all the time. Since stopping, I have had fewer nightmares, regained three days of each week which were previously filled with fear and dread the night before and day of the appointment, paralyzing anxiety and fear at the appointment itself (I could not hear her over the pounding in my ears for about the first ten minutes of each appointment, numb upper body, shaking, teeth chattering etc) and intense urges to si to alleviate the anger and frustration for the day after the appointment. I did tell the t about these things and she said they were resistance and she was sorry it was so hard for me - but that is all. I would bring it up every month or so and her response was always the same. I tried for a year and although it got a little less intensely bad for about a month or so during the winter, it got worse again and when I quit, it was really bad for me. The problem is, now I am starting to be afraid of the other t (with whom I previously had not had these intense reactions) and I am afraid the same thing will happen again. I have told the second t this. I really do not know if it is masochistic self torture to continue trying therapy with these strangers or if this is what it is supposed to be like. I know no one can really help with this, I just thought it might help me to post it.