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Originally Posted by earthmamma
Your not who you think you are, is what I found. I'd tsken in other peoples sickness and made it "me", I begun to view the world in certain ways because of this, thinking "this is who I am", all this is a defence against the pain of finding out the emotional abandoments I expereinced that prevented me becoming who I could be. My B/w thinking is changing now, my persaonal prejudices and beliefs I thought were mine are falling away.
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I could not agree more. I made many assumptions based on others' behaviors, values, judgments, and many of them turned out to be false. Others' decided what I was, and I accepted it. Now, as I get older, and stop 1) second guessing myself; 2) looking for ANYTHING in terms of self-definition outside of myself, I'm freer and happer. And therapy doesn't work as well, because (see above). I was looking for definition from a therapist or from the process of therapy and I am not finding it. I think the fact that I did not idealize my last T was a clue, and there have been other indications as well. I am going to need a hell of a new T...... A lot of what I thought was mine, was (quoted again) and is falling away. Hurahh!