I think amandalouise has made some great points.

I hope the psychiatrist can help you find answers
Sorry you've had such trauma.

for me-- there seems several different ways it can be....

sometimes it's as though I have a very thick blanket over my head- not hearing well or understanding others, visual awareness is difficult.... it's hard to describe in words.

some other times it's as though I've been sucked into a vaccum- don't feel anything, no sight or sound - just -- gone... like under anaesthesia...

still other times it's like I'm not even inside me-- but watching me interact with others from afar

you know that feeling one has right after they shut the car door and they realize the keys are IN the car and it's now locked..... that's the feeling I get after I'm present again
-- gasp!
I'm shocked(what the H just happened, not again!)
-embarrassed-(they must think I'm stupid, I'm so lost/confused)
then sad.(I hate this, I'm so dumb. why can't I quit being so ditsy?)

I don't like any of these things, I don't talk/post about it much-- just thought I'd share in case it might be of some help for you to rule this out-- I wouldn't wish this on anyone.... not that you are wishing it... just that it's so not good and has deeply affected my adult life in negative ways.

I wish you- self understanding and much healing.

fins