gypsy i can relate to the insanity of addiction. i did almost die and i have had friends who did including my bgf for life. she was 45. had 5 wonderful young adults/kids. in my case i was fortunate that someone lived with me at the time and knew i needed immediate help-ER. i didn't intentionally do this. it is all a blur for about 15 hours-semi coma. so addiction offing ppl is something very personal.
i did go to AA and 6 mos. of outpatient treatment 9-3 M-F. if you know you're in trouble and i believe you do, get clean. if you and hubby are codependents with drug use you're neither good for the other, imo. you may not even really know him.
i'm glad u posted and hope you'll give us updates. there's NA too. just do it for YOURSELF. you deserve to give yourself a life free of being chained in bondage with addiction. you/we aren't living in the true sense of the world when we use. we are escaping reality and isn't that what life is all about/ reality?
we're here for you gypsy.-i'm 21 yrs clean and sober and happy, joyous and free! if i could do it, you can too!