(((sanada)))

I have been in your place - the bottom of the well (or in my case, a deep hole). My only advice is to try hard to force yourself to go for a walk, clean a space in your home - anything that make you move your body. Heck - dance to the music! And make it lively music - not sad, soul-searching music.

Perhaps, despite my depressive episodes, this is why I no longer see a T. It triggered me into deeper places.

Just my personal thoughts. Hoping you begin finding the light again soon.