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No we do not have an HR department. And the attitude that things have not been worked out yet seems to be my GM’s position. We have an employee handbook and a schedule of disciplinary actions. When she called me initially she started by defending the write up I received for my inappropriate behavior. Actually she apologized for the manager that wrote me up. I immediately stated that the write up was the correct thing to do. I was 100% wrong dealing with my problem in this manner. I knew full well that I should have waited for her to come in and give her the problem to deal with.
I know that my anger was justified. My issue is how I reacted. I take a great deal of pride (and we all know it comeith before a fall) in how I act in the work place. No matter what is going on in my personal life I try to be professional and dependable in the workplace. I have no delusions that this woman will change her behavior. I really need to develop a thicker skin so that she does not get to me.
My GM was irritated with the manager that let me go home. She wanted me to stay and work it out. Frankly I am sure she thought I was going to quit. Heck I thought I was going to quit. She must be pretty intuitive or at least know me pretty well because she gave me a long time to calm down before she called. After I got my emotions somewhat under control I started a job search. I was going to have a plan in place before I saw her on Tuesday. By the time she called me I was pretty reasonable. If I would have stayed, I would have probably blew up again and quit on the spot. Which is one of the things this co-worker of mine wants. She’s flat out told me that she’s afraid I’m going to steal her job (which makes no sense, we do the SAME job. They have 4 of these positions). She does not believe I should be working there because “I don’t need the money.” I have told her many times I would trade her bills for mine any day of the week, but because I don’t go into details sharing my personal finances I don’t need the job.
Normally when I get angry, normal angry, I am amazing at work. I focus only on my job. I could not focus on even the most menial tasks yesterday. My job usually requires me to be thinking three steps ahead. I enjoy that part of the job, it is like a time management game. Sunday I was in a fog. I’m angry with myself that 1) I let myself get that angry. 2) when I realized that I was that angry I did not leave before I acted on my feelings. 3) that I made an absolute fool of myself. And 4) that I revealed so much of myself to someone I do not like.
It is all very frustrating. Either she is going to be openly hostile towards me when I work with her next or worse she has this passive aggressive thing she does. AAAAA is my friend now. We're friends! It is so strange.
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I've been married for 24 years and have four wonderful children.
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