Hey Soup, I just wanted to jump in again to elaborate on my earlier post.
For me (and I think I've explained this before) my anxiety/OCD and depression are like a dog; a dog that is constantly jumping all over me, barking at me, acting all hyper and won't leave me alone.
Taking meds makes the dog sit down next to me and behave. I'm keenly aware that it's still always there, but now, instead of it being a hindrance, I can function. Get out of bed, eat, shower, take care of my kids. You know, function. The dog sitting down doesn't make me "happy", the only thing that would make that happen is if animal control came over and took the dog away for good. LOL. But that's just not going to happen for me.
I'm currently on Lexapro and Wellbutrin (I was on Prozac several years ago, but this current combo works better for me). I'm also on Xanax as needed for the times when the dog decides it wants to get on my case again. This happens once in a while still, but not as often as before the Lex/Well. I'm VERY careful to only take it when I ABSOLUTELY need it: when I feel I want to crawl out of my skin or when the bottom falls out on me, because I don't want to get dependent/addicted to it. But man, it works. The dog not only sits down.....it leaves the frikkin' planet. But I digress...
Anyhoo. I was on meds for several years and just this summer decided to add therapy to the mix (opposite to those who started with t and added meds later). I do sometimes wonder if I should come off the meds for a while, so that t can see me in my "natural" state because while medicated, I find it very hard sometimes to have an authentic "reaction" to some situations. I can be kind of apathetic sometimes. But I don't mind because the constant breaking down/crying/OCD stuff/anxiety/not leaving the bed or house wasn't an option anymore. The alternative, for me, just isn't a viable way to live life.
While first starting meds, it is normal for your body to take a few weeks of adjusting.
Good luck, I hope things start to look up for you real soon.