I've felt terrible for a long time now.
Today I had a job interview.
In the past I've always been normal or hypoM when going for an interview, but even so, when I get in there an instinct takes over, I find myself sounding 10x mOre confident, more clever and have better answers than I could think of before the interview.
I was worried that wouldnt happen today, becausE I've been so ill.
But it did, it's like there's an instinct within me, that can kick In when I desperately need it to, before and after the interview my anxiety was there And depression.
Why if I can force myself out of it for that small period, can we not control it all the time?

Even now, knowing I did really well, I'm worrying about if i do or don't get the job, if I don't I'll feel a failure, if I do, I'm setting myself A massive challenge..