((Hydrophobic)) Mental illness is not easy to deal with regardless, but it's especially nasty when it strikes at an early age. Most people just have to get through work, but you somehow have to survive high school, including all the confusing and stressful social factors, on top of work. The fact that you are able to push through most of the time is impressive.

Why did you have to stop taking abilify? Is your pdoc going to put you on another antipsychotic? If you don't have an appointment soon, you should call him and let him know what is going on. You want to get this under control so before it becomes an emergency. And I suppose it would also be nice to be able to live your life.

It's exceedingly cliché, but your mother just wants what is best for you. Sometimes when we are sick, we cut ourselves too much slack. Yesterday, for instance, I was really down. I didn't even try to study for the major exam I have tomorrow. I did nothing the entire day but sleep and surf the internet. Was I truly incapable of getting anything done? It sure felt like it. But if I tried, I might just have been pleasantly surprised. If I give myself a break from life every time I feel like I need one, my life will quickly spiral outside of my control. Bipolar, rather than Secretum, will determine how Secretum lives her life, and I really do not want that. Your mom probably fears a similar future for you, and wants to make sure that you still can live the life you desire despite your illness.