Hubby & me found each other during the worst yrs & we have truely helped each other go from the brink of probably wot would have ended then in prison or even worse death! & we stuck by each other thru thick & thin. we made the commitment of marriage together once clean & the one thing we do know is that we have each other. although not totally productive at times & codependant in substance abuse we DO know each other to the core of our souls & we wouldnt be together if we didnt. we both went thru the 2 yrs on the program for heroin withdrawl & thats a place we never will allow ourselves to go back to...its just the stumbling block we've fallen over now. He works 6 days outta 7 & has done for last 2yrs & i run the home/kids etc until i can find a paying job that fits into sch hrs. i guess the use of drugs kills the boredom inbetween that we still havent got quite use to & although the drug use isnt daily or every other day its the effects after use that worries me & then the 'want' of more to contain. We would fall apart completely if we didnt have each other, we truely are best friends & know each other probably better than we know ourselves at times and we do listen & hear what the others saying. Now here's the thing... we generally use the meth for the best sex and thats where the problem really lies. We have wicked sex on it and i think its the sex thats addictive, the high from the sex is better than any drug but it seems the drug is needed in order for that sex to happen. geez thats all very personal isnt it!! oh well here goes i'll press 'submit reply' now