Today has been an awful day. And I then went and made it worse.

I had posted before about having the urge to cut. Before this, only brusing and picking and scraping, not great but thought I had it under control.

I guess not.

Cut myself. Not painful, peaceful. Which scares the **** out of me.



Slipped up one time, am I now stuck trying to get up the slippery slope without doing it again?

I don't know what the heck I'm doing anymore.

I'm sorry. You all warned me not to do it. I guess I'm not a very good listener.