And right now, right this minute, this day and hour, I no longer have any choice. Been floating for a long time and lots of things have happened, but if I want to make sure that really, really bad changes do not happen right now, today, this week, I have to bust right on through this emotional hurricane focussed on asking for things I need and want. I have to do it. I just have to do it. Can't get away from it any more. It's right here knocking on my door right now. Can't you hear it?