I've had so many problems with the meds to treat my supposed childhood bipolar disorder (I actually have histrionic personality disorder, as I was recently diagnosed) like antipsychotic-linked cognitive dulling, weight gain, hair loss from lithium, sexual dysfunction (even after risperdal withdrawal), recurrent acute pancreatitis that almost killed me twice, and I've recently been diagnosed with stage four pancreatic cancer linked again to risperdal. I'm only twenty years old, and now I'm going to die because of risperdal.