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Originally Posted by Elli-Beth
T confronted me about hiding "the issue" from him. He was really really firm, like he was mad but he didn't want to scare me, because I scare easily and he knows it.
But I was still too scared to say a word and I had to friggin write again. Now its like 5 hours later and my words are still stuck. And it feels like is mad at me. And "the issue" is still there. And I have to try to appear "normal" at work tomorrow when I'm a mess.
I just want my safe happy goofy loving T back. He was the only safe part of my life. Now he's all firm and disappointed.
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Elli-Beth - I can understand this. My therapist scared me in a similar way a couple of sessions ago. It's so hard when they trigger stuff. It was so hard to tell her at the next session that she scared me. I still don't think I conveyed to her how much she scared me. I wished I could hide too.
hang in there, Elli-Beth. Even though it's hard to believe right now, you're still safe with your therapist.