widgets, I think our minds are more powerful than we realise. They can and do protect us when we need it. I too can "switch on" the more stable, together persona when I need to, and it makes me question whether there's even anything wrong with me at times! As another example of what our minds can do, consider individuals with Dissociative Identity Disorders, where the mind has 'split' into alters as a protective measure.

Is this the job you've posted about in the past? If so, I recall there was a colleague there who meant a lot to you, who has since moved on? This will no doubt provoke memories and emotions for you - but it could also be an opportunity for some closure. I hope you get the outcome that's right for you xx