To make progress I think that therapy needs to be a lot more then just talking. I identified a problem, gathered all my info by being aware of myself around this problem including letting out any feelings, analyzed problem, and then chose solutions and then checked out if they worked or I needed different solutions (going back to gathering info or expressing feelings if needed).

Is insane fear of therapist because she can peer into you? Is it a competition in therapy for you? Professors seem to be pretty competitive. You would have to be to rise to that level since there aren't that many positions.

So the cure was worse then the disease?