Good work, Sannah. Stopdog, do not discount this feeling. It comes from somewhere. It is not crazy. It makes perfect sense. It explains the puking, for sure. You feared for your life. It explains why you are so well defended, which explains why you are still alive and so successful! (Just not at therapy!) It explains the horrible feeling that drove you to therapy in the first place. NOW we can begin!

"It was like she would kill me".