I've dealt with chronic depression (dysthemia sp?) for 30 of my 52 years. I've been off meds and therapy for 3 years trying to see if I could do it on my own. It's been tough and I am really becoming disabled, dysfunctional, and not taking care of my family and responsibilties. I'm shutting down and cannot get motivated, I don't know why my family loves me anymore. I am trying to at least get the motivation to seek out some professional help again.