I've got bipolar schizoaffective - schizophrenia is among one of the ten most debilitating diseases to mankind on the face of the globe. I'm not sure where they place schizoaffective, but it's no fun either. Who understands? Don't we feel alone? I know I do. My friends, even those who serve on the NAMI board, some don't understand an inkling of what mental illness is. They must think it's the effect of a wrong particular value or viewpoint, and if only that value or viewpoint were corrected, by education or religion, that person wouldn't have the problem.

I am in love with a girl who is in love with me. Problem is that I can't work or else I get manic.. and she doesn't make enough money to be secure enough for me that I won't worry about the finances. It would cut things very close. Most people would tell me, "If you love her, money doesn't matter." But they aren't mentally ill, and don't realize how mental illness stressors come to life in my life through lack of finances, responsibilities of a marriage from me, and any leftover stressors. I could end up in the hospital just because marriage places stressors on me. We're about out of choices on medicine: I take Abilify, Lithium, Klonopin, and I've been prescribed Zoloft and Wellbutrin, but neither seem to help. He won't seem to try Lexipro, plus I've got hypocondriac symptoms, so any new medicine change is a big deal to me.

Just keep us in your thoughts and prayers. Thanks