All,

Two hours until T. Of course, I'm freaked and worried whether the new T will like me (it did help to get this out yesterday about my old T. on a thread...thanks for the input).

Also worried whether I will like HER! that's progress.

I'm hoping to find someone I feel really comfortable with (or feel that will grow over time). I'm picturing a much more welcoming atmosphere and an ability to do some preliminary "small talk" and hoping that my new T will be more participatory and offer some reflection and feedback. Still I feel like hurling....I just do.

I'm so nervous that I'm considering showing up REALLY late. Or "gettiing lost"

I'm also considering calling a very old T back...we did some good work together but her approach has become very different (new age stuff and law of attraction stuff, which doesn't suit me as well as I"d like). Still, this very old T and I have wonderful rapport. We really "get" each other.

No real questions here just huge nerves. I'm just so afraid of opening up...to be shut down, and it's clear to me that I felt really damaged by my cold distant T. I honestly think I need therapy to deal with my failed therapy. Someone here relate?