I'm hoping to find someone I feel really comfortable with (or feel that will grow over time). I'm picturing a much more welcoming atmosphere and an ability to do some preliminary "small talk" and hoping that my new T will be more participatory and offer some reflection and feedback. Still I feel like hurling....I just do.
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I'm so nervous that I'm considering showing up REALLY late. Or "gettiing lost"
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No real questions here just huge nerves. I'm just so afraid of opening up...to be shut down, and it's clear to me that I felt really damaged by my cold distant T. I honestly think I need therapy to deal with my failed therapy. Someone here relate?