Yes Rohag, it is very significant, I used to love to play, and now... nothing. And the non answer is a little to true. I'm trying to do something that is bigger than I am. Trying to fight so hard that I'm losing the battle. In the last 24 hours it seems like distractions don't work, and that has direct influence to the hope that appears to be draining.

I know where I should be, but I can't go back, I can't leave live outside the hospital, I have to do something before my choice is taken from me.