((((TheQuietOnexx))))

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. I know that sometimes we cannot see beyond what is right there but hold on for there is more. I hope you will open up and talk to them and tell them exactly how you are feeling. No one can know if you do not tell them. I say this because it is something I am learning now and even though we may do things that show it or indicate it, we need to tell tell them.

Your life is worth the help and you are worth being heard. Someday you are going to be able to get out and things will not always be this way. I hear you and I validate how you are feeling, but our feelings change constantly. Hurting yourself is only hurting you more. Doing something to yourself is endangering yourself and not giving yourself that chance to find out. You do deserve that chance.

I understand why we do things when the pain is so bad that it feels it will never stop. But hurting you is a viscious cycle that causes even more feelings of guilt, shame, failure, and pain. And when you do that the original thing that is still there does not go away for it is just covered up for the moment and when that moment passes it is still there all along but we have now added to that.

I know this because I have been there and I do understand. You are not alone. I know that it is hard to talk and when we feel we are not understood or cared about it is harder. But truth is talking about it and allowing yourself to work through those things is the way out. It can get better with time. But you have to be willing to give yourself that time.

I know that it is so hard, and sometimes it is all we can do to keep going. But even if you have to take one minute, one second at a time, then if that is all you can do it is okay. We are here listening, supporting, encouraging, and caring. I hope you can hear that and that you will keep reaching out IRL and here. You are not alone, even though I know how it can feel so alone at times.

Just know that I care and am here for you. You can PM me anytime and I will answer and listen. Call those numbers that I sent you if you need to talk to someone. You can get better, give yourself that time. I say these things because I do understand where you are and I also know where you can get to. Hold on to us and we are holding on to you.

Sending you many gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps