Heya Christine08,

When I say you have a lot of hurt and, it may sound like an obvious statement-but damn; there's a few lines in here that worry me in terms of you harming yourself;

It's really hard to beleive you're worthwhile if your parents never made you feel you were; that's painful as hell-I just wanted to remind you that you can always make a call to either a suicide hotline, or medical hospital, ect-I'm not a metnal health pro yet, so I highly encourage you to seek another psychologist if you feel the one that was helping you was not effective; it sure is not going to be an easy road to healing, fer sure;

I had a friend go through something called an "emergency phase/state" dealing with SA; she failed outta school, her parents abandoned her, lost her phone and car, pushed away all her friends, had nightmares everynight-would sitdown and stare off into space and snap out of it only to realize it was now evening; things can get really bad-but she has picked up her life, started all over with major disadvantages. It is possible.
I hope you have an outlet that you find fun;

I'm sorry if I've jumped the gun and assumed that you are suicidal-trying to look out for ya though; please get support from a licensed psychologist if you do find yourself day dreaming about it, or contemplated the means to do so-any of that;

PC is a great outlet yo, I hope you keep posting,
take care and ill get back to replying to the last one soon,
pm me if you ever want to;
-obj