Thanks for the kind words. I'm working towards becoming less self-conscious and more logical, but it's hard. My ADD doesn't exactly help either. I think, "No, this is too painful... go play video games instead."
The thing is, a lot of my insecurity is stupid. I was never considered good at math, but at the moment it's my best class. Part of the reason I do badly in English is that I'm terrified of what the teacher will think when she reads my writing. I suppose because writing is important to me, the idea of not doing well hurts more than forgetting how to divide integers. But I KNOW I'm a good writer, at least for my age. I hate how my emotions get in the way. I'm sorry for ranting, but...