For me personally, I find that I open up in a superficial way very easily, but have my guard up regarding letting people get to know me real well. It's a trust thing....to open up means exposing myself on a deeper level...that means possibly getting hurt, rejected or abandoned. All of which have been done to me by my mom.

I'm trying though...I met a friend at the hospital, she was in for depression and we became very close because we were roommates. We've kept in touch through email and I'm going to see her Sunday. I like her a lot and we became attached at the hip the moment we met and that doesn't usually happen with me, because I'm so guarded- So this is a big step for me, but worth taking to get to know a new friend.

This will be the first "new" friend I've had other then at work or completely superficial in years.... Pretty pathetic huh? Never mind don't answer that...lol